Who am I writing for?

For any of you lovely people (and there were a few of you) who took the time to read my first post–thanks!  I won’t lie; it was ridiculously exciting to see that someone had visited my blog and read something that I wrote.  Because sometimes I feel like that might be the only thing anyone ever reads by me.

Now before you think I’m throwing myself a pity party here, I’m not.  I’m not!  Really.  I’m just trying to figure out who I’m writing for.  I had always felt like I was writing for myself (which I am) and then when my friends started asking to read my stuff and they liked it (yay!) I decided that maybe I was writing for them, too.  But now, I’m trying not to fall into the trap of writing for an agent.  Because it’s so tempting to do.  You come across an agent you really like, and you send them something that you are just positive will be right in their wheelhouse, and then you get the dreaded rejection letter.  So, then you stalk them on their blog or their twitter account thinking, “maybe I’ll learn what they really want to see, their wishlist, and I’ll write that.”

It’s so tempting.  It really is.

If I have learned one really important fact about being a writer, it’s this:  I hate the querying process.  It’s so tricky and complicated and time consuming and deflating and I absolutely loathe it (because, let’s face it, I’d rather be writing stories).  I realize its importance, but I am also beginning to realize that I must suck at querying.  Because I’ve only gotten a handful of responses back that weren’t just your standard form rejection letter.  That’s why it can be so tempting to write something from an agent’s wishlist.  You think, maybe if I write what they want, then they’ll like it.

How about you faithful readers out there?  Have any of you faced the dreaded form rejection letter?  Care to share your rejection stories and your uplifting perseverance stories with me?  I’d love to hear them!

In the meantime, I’ll stay strong and carry on and continue to remember the most important thing: write for yourself, first.

I think for my next entry, I’d like to discuss the dreaded topic of genre.  Is it really that hard to fit your novel description into a single genre?  Yeah, sometimes it is.  How do you choose which one really captures your story the best?

Thanks for reading!  May your coffee be strong and your insomnia be productive.

What the heck am I doing?

I’m not asking that question just about the blog–even though I really don’t have any idea how to run a blog.  I’m asking it about writing in general.  Let me clarify.  I love writing.  No, I mean I really LOVE it.  I’ve been writing stories since I was fifteen.  I took every creative writing class I could lay my hands on back in high school (and no I won’t admit just how long ago that was).  I’ve joined fan bases and dabbled in fanfiction and had some beta readers who have become good friends that I’ve learned more from than I ever learned in school about writing.  But as much as I’ve learned and practiced honing my writing skills (and practiced and practiced), I can’t ever seem to figure out what the heck I’m doing.

Because, let’s face it, I have a life, a family, as well as other hobbies that all add up to having zero time to actually write.  So, I’ve turned to the game of seeing how little sleep I can still function on just to allow myself to stay up writing until the wee hours of the morning.  If you are a writer and you’re actually reading this (then shame on you, why aren’t you writing?) then I know you feel my pain.  But we writers persevere because we have no choice.  It’s in our blood and we love it and we HAVE to write.  I’ve tried ignoring the urge when it hits me, but it just continues to hound me until I give in and find myself up at two a.m. jotting down plot points furiously (thank goodness for backlit keyboards, am I right?).

So, that’s what this blog is dedicated to–my love of writing and my search for the elusive.  Elusive what, you might ask?  In my case, it’s to finally have a published work of fiction under my belt.  So that I can go from being just a writer, to becoming an actual author.  If I find any inspirational gems or pieces of advice along the way, I’ll be sure to share them with you in reward for you putting up with reading my rambling drivel of a blog, and I hope that if you have anything to share that you’ll do the same.

I think for my next entry, I’ll talk about the first elusive step on any writer’s journey to becoming published–finding an agent.  Until next time, my lovelies.  May your coffee be strong and your insomnia put to good use.